My Hope Alone…

I’ve been on a journey…

And I am coming back to the heart of the Father.

I have come to understand that you cannot put all your hopes into

“one basket."  Nothing can bear the weight of being the source of all my happiness. 

There is much in this life that can add to a happy life and that will look unique to each one of us.  I am incredibly grateful for my life, its experiences, and all the people I have the joy and honor to know…

But,  I’m coming back to the heart of the Father…

I understand that in my humanity I am broken,  and that I struggle with self-esteem, confidence, being strong enough, love, forgiveness and the constant pull of being led astray…

I know I can try harder, and I can “be better”, but... it’s never enough, and it never ends.  Honestly…it’s exhausting!

 I am being called to “rest” in Him.  In Him who has all the authority and all the power and  all the wisdom.  Resting in Him is always the better way to live this life.  In Him I feel the swell of confidence, security, self-esteem, power, and authority.  

In Him I can accomplish all that He has called me to.  In Him I am the best version of me. In Him, I can love others. In Him, I no longer have to rely on my broken self but I can surrender the “work” to Him.  He gives me what I don’t have and He is what I am not…

I have spent too much time working this life out in my own way and in my own strength... and I’m tired!

We all come to the end of ourselves in different ways and at different times.  The disciples didn’t "get it" until Jesus had left them… Not till then did they understand their mission in life and they ran with it, never looking back.

They didn’t do life perfectly, but they did it with the understanding that they needed to abandon the idea of themselves and take on the life of Christ.

We are so much more in Him, but if you are like me there is just so much that I have not known and definitely not understood…but I'm on a journey.

He has been the faithful one to not abandon me and continually knock on the “door of my heart” offering what makes this life rich, full, beautiful and worth it all...Himself. 

The struggle of life is real but He is continually calling each of us to fall on the rock, fall on Him who rescues us over and over and over again!